Everything come to an end

Nobody wrong in a relationship

I won't blame you for giving up our relationship

you have your reason and i understand

Build love is easy but to destroy it, too hard for me

But you choose this way, I have nothing to say.

But i still believe in that you didn't mean to treat me this way

I know boy.

Maybe in everyone heart there's a really important and the most favourite person

But i realised that, for you, I'm not.

But who knows there's always a person that occupied a really huge space in my heart
If there is a chance, I hope I can continue this blog.Once again, Iloveyou.Goodbye.

Today is our first movie day ! :D

Morning wake up early and dress up nicely and prepare to see him

We bought ticket and immediately went inside the cinema

He remembered that I told him before that I want couple sit :p

Although he personally want to sit in the middle

Love the moment we cuddle together while watching movie

We holded hands, we hugged, he kissed, he touched, I miss every moment.

Love your smile, love your odor, love your everything

I'm not unhappy, I'm just feel very reluctant every time we say goodbye

This will be our last outing for this year

Feel like not leaving you and want to stay together every moment with you forever :D

Finally we had been together for so long

Thanks for not giving up our relationship

I hope we only say good night but not goodbye to each other in our future

Boy, you made my life, I feel blessed to have you in my life

Thank you so much, Iloveyou.

Last 3 days, I saw something that made my day

13th December, today i'm very happy coz I'm gonna meet my boy

Since we have been long time never have a date :D

But seriously, I don't think this is our dating.

We planned to watch movie but there's less choice for us to choose so we skipped

After that, he brought me to his working place to have some meal :D

But on the way, we didn't hold hand, sometimes he even walk faster than me

He ordered banana fritters with ice cream

We talk a lot in the restaurant, I felt very happy on that moment :D

Seem he had another appointment with his another friend on the day we date

And he asked me to go back home early, coz he wanted to find his friend

He told me not to think so much and emphasize that he's not going to forsake me

I asked him who is it, he said just a friend,
Seem he doesn't want to let me know about this friend

I used to believe him, I told myself don't be too over control a man

After our meal, seem he's very rushed and wanted to send me back home as fast as possible

Before he send me back, he went to meet some friends that also walking around at midvalley

I initiatively holded his hand but he refused 

He told me that he felt shy to hold my hand in front of his friend. :'D

On the way he accompanied me to the bus stop, he walked so fast

I need to walk faster to catch up with him

Until I walked faster and I could catch up with him, then he only slowly hold my hand.

But just awhile, he put off my hand and I walked to the bus stop alone.

Last 2 days, I want him to send me the picture that we took together
He refused and find many excuses to reject to send the picture to me, I don't know why.
Yesterday, I accidentally saw a picture of him and a girl in instagram
They looked so close in the photo,
Since the description of the photo told me that their relationship is just brother sister
I stunned at this photo for a few minutes
 I told him that i'm not feeling well and I want to sleep early
We didn't have phone call that night.
I think a lot at the night, I'm asking myself, why she will be so close with him
I felt so funny that we don't even have a so close photo before even we are couple :'D
I felt so failure to be your girlfriend :')
I still can act like nothing when having phone call with you :'D
I always text you and you just give me a seen and never reply, I accepted.
You take picture with other girl, I accepted.
But I couldn't accept that you outing with a girl and take close picture without telling me
You didn't tell me that the friend you going to meet is a girl!
If you tell me earlier that you going to meet a girl, I won't be so unhappy right now
Why you want me to discovery it by myself? why??? :'(
I told myself, if I want a unbreakable relationship with you
I should trust you, I should be loyalty and I did.
But I get nothing, nothing else :')
I knew sometimes I'm overthinking
But all I need is just a little bit care and attention from you my dear! :')
I just want to feel that I'm important for you
I just want to have a date with you, only you
I just want you to hold my hand no matter what
I just want you to take out some time to spent with me, just only me
We don't have much time to meet each other so I really appreciate the time we together
And this is just my little request from you
You have a very important status in my life
I really care about your feeling
I always feel worry and do a lot of things to make you cool off when we fight
Just because I don't want you to leave me
I love you my dear
But my every single action didn't get your attention
I wonder how important I'm for you :')

  

 My cute boy get mad of me

I get jealous and I said something that make him feel like he had lost of trust

I really want to say sorry to you boy

I will get jealous just because I care about you

It doesn't mean that I don't trust you

I knew that you're using your own way to love me

You pay out a lot but you doesn't show me and never want me to pay back to you

 But I knew you really do a lot of changes for me

But I said something that hurt you

I'm really sorry my boy!

I know it really get hurt when you pay out a lot but doesn't get trust from your love one

I'm sorry babe!!! I doesn't mean to hurt you :(

I'm sorry I get jealous sometimes and overreact.

It's only because there's a bigger chance of me losing you than you losing me

 I really scare that you don't want to care me anymore

The night you never call me I felt really scare

I scare that you will not find me anymore

I called you but you didn't answer and I'm sleepless that night

Finally the next day you line call me but connection weak

And we didn't talk more that night

But I knew you're still upset about it

I just hope that you can understand that I'm not purposely

I care about you, I love you that's why I get jealous

Can you please forgive me?

Give me a chance to change

I promise I won't do it again anymore

I just want you to be happy with me 

Because you are seriously all I want, the only one.

I still want you to stay in my life.

Boy, I'm sorry, I love you.

Boy just had a surgery this afternoon

He's now weak and he has difficulty in breathing

Really worry about him.

I felt that he was suffering : /

Now, I'm currently listening to his breathing

And I felt so heartache that he needs to suffer all this

I've asked him whether want to quit the call and go to rest

But he refused coz he says he wants to listen to my voice

Aww, dear. You make me love you more, but I more care about your health

God, why he must be the one who suffered?

I hope I can share his pain so he won't be so exhausted like now

Boy, I want you to get well soon, this is an order!

Sorry that I can't take care of you.

You don't need to act in front of me, I know you were in pain

Just remember I'm always beside you and don't worry :)
You must be more healthier than me boy!

Speedy recovery please!
Love you and miss you too, rest well and good night sweetheart.

I really need a job coz imma lack of money : /

My phone had just dead and now searching for budget phone

I really need wechat line and whatapps

Without them, I'm really lifeless,  you know?

I want line call, wechat voice messege with my dear everyday :D

That's the main reason I think. :p

Since holiday is near the corner

I want to meet my babe boy!! :DD

Since we have 2 months plus never meet each other

You know, 2 months is not easy and I'm kinda miss him!

He made many changes during this few months and I'm really happy about it

I feel blessed with you babe boy! Love you much ♥

Hmm, we have been together for half year

Boy , I want you to be healthy, do you understand?

 You always make me worry a lot

Your legs hurt, you fever, you vomit,

Although every time when we are having talk you were just act nothing

But I know you suffered

I want you to visit the doctor, but you refused

Just now you text me that you're feeling bad

I worry about you so I text you back

But you didn't reply my message

This makes me more excited 

 I rushed up my room after having dinner and give you a call

But I get an answer, I'm busy.

Yesterday I saw his status.

He said that when he tells a person his real thoughts

He felt very happy after telling that person

On that time, I thought isn't he talking about me?

I hope that person he talking is me

But when I asked him, I realized that the main person isn't me

He told me that he always tell his real thoughts to a friend

But I didn't ask is he or she.

 And then he additionally said that the status actually included me

He was trying to disguise everything

But after that he told me again that the status actually was talking about me

 I'm confused but I used to believe him.

He told me before, family will be the first, friends will be the second

So how about me?

Sometimes I will think that isn't my pay out was still not enough

Am I failed to being people girlfriend?

You always tell me a lot of your stuff every time

But I knew not everything about you, I knew.

I knew that you have a lot of stuff in your heart

But you don't want to tell

I knew that we just met for 4 months plus

And I'm still not that person you can tell your all your thoughts

I'm not mad, just feeling little disappointment 

Because I realized that I'm not the very important person in your heart ;)

By the way, you have a very important status in my heart

Its never mind but I have one request, please stay longer with me

Anyways, I'll still always loving you and please don't leave me :) ♥

Today, our second date ;)

Today we cuddle together at his house

Prepared lunch for him early in the morning

Feel so blessed when he is eating my lunch

He loves to act like a children in front of me

We happened our first kiss today ♥

Actually I felt really shy  haha

But he looked very experienced :D

Spend my half day with him

And its really made my day

Every time we leave 

Makes me feel very very reluctant

I really hope that 

One day we'll never have to say goodbye

Just goodnight ;)

Appreciate every single time we together

Miss him right now and love you boy ♥

 Holidays are bored :(

But we gonna meet this Friday :p

Really excited for me..haha

He's the first guy that drives me crazy

Last time I want guys give me surprise

I want guys buy me things

I want guys find me every moment

Maybe I can say that I locked their freedom

But now, I learn to accept and forgive a person

You changed me seriously

Now, I can give you what you want

I don't give you stress, I give you freedom

Not many rules between our relationship

Our love just simple ;)

Actually I've started to think about our future

But I know you won't think it so far

You're a person that live in your own situation

You have your own way and you dislike people to change you

You didn't think a lot

That's why I don't dare to mention future in front of you

Yesterday, you told me that I'm the first girl that you can love for so long

Even though we just meet less than 5 times.

You told me when I laugh, your upset, worry, annoyance all melt away

Because that's call love boy

I think that you are really my true love

Although you can't assure that you won't fall in love to the other

And you always warn me not to love so much 

But no one can stop me from loving you

Babe, that's my choice, I won't blame you if you did

Because I really love you ;)

Babe, 4 months together, our love have grown so much.
 I have learned to love u more than ever and I'm sure there's more to come.
I love u my darling. 
I will try my best to provide u with all the love u need.
There will be many more days, months, years to go
 And I assure u my darling
 I will be with you forever
Time flies..
But our love is still going strong!
Looking forward into the future with you ....
Wanna spend the rest of ma life with you..
I have never thought life could be this sweet 
It's got me cheesin' from cheek to cheek.
Its u that i want to hold
A future with you is what i want the most
I'll love you darling, 
I'll love you till China and Africa meet 
And the river jumps over the mountain 
And the salmon sing in the street
Hahahaha
Anyway, Happy 4th monthsary my dear.

We are having date tonight

Actually not a date just a meet

But I'm already satisfied to see him

The first he hold my hand, can't describe my feeling : DD

So funny, we wear the same outfit today

Something happened and the atmosphere become a little bit weird : /

Feel so reluctant when he say he gonna leave :(

What a grateful day today, not gonna forget about today

Miss him and love him so much :) ♥

Since now is 26th July, my latest update was 7th July

13 days without updating my bloggie :3

Many things happened go through these days

My boy treat me better, I mean very good now :)

Although sometimes we have some quarrels

But sure I will forgive him, because I love him

Friendship, the pretty ones said she wants to transfer school next year

Although we had unhappy past

But I'm really blessed that I have a pretty friend like her 

She has accompany me for 7 months at the same school, same class

Obviously I'll feel uncomfortable without her next year

That's why I really treasure every moment we together at school

Everyone besides me leave one by one

Sometimes I think that should I leave this school too?

But I can't give up my academic

Maybe they will live better after leaving, I hope so

Gonna date with Mr Eng tomorrow

Hope everything go through easily and nothing bad happened.

Life with ups and downs, that's life.

I appreciate everything that I have in my life :)

We haven't even celebrate any of the anniversary yet
And I'm still waiting, waiting and waiting.

Actually 3 months are not easy for us

And I hope our relationship will stay long

Cuz my heart really like you, Eng Chee Yioen :)

You are the first guy in my life that changed me

I will not feeling well without you

Days are not like days,nights are not like nights

Without you I am nothing

Without you, I am like a sky without sun and moon

Without you, I am a body without heart, blood and feelings.

You are the most amazing thing I will ever own

For the first time, I've found someone I hate leaving

I've found someone that I can't get enough of

I've found someone that accepts me for who I am

And doesn't tell me I need to change

I think I've found someone who I can fall madly in love with.

I may not get to see you as often as I like
I may not get to hold you in my hand
But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love
And I can't let you go
If I could have just one wish
I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath 
The warmth of your lips on my cheek.
The touch of your fingers on my skin
And the feel of your heart beating with mine
I know that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you
If I could tell you one thing
I guess it would be that I love hearing your voice
And that your smile just happens to brighten my entire day
You make my heart skip beats like a scratched cd :)
When I say I love you, please believe it's true
When I say forever, you know I'll never leave you
When I say goodbye, promise me you won't cry
Cause the day I'll be saying that would be the day I die :)
Boy, I will love you until infinity runs out 
Happy 3rd months Anniversary ♥

Just finished a few minutes phone call with him

I'm really sorry that every time want you to repeat what had you said

I know you don't like it

 I'm not purposely want to do that

I knew that you're really tired

I just want you to have enough of sleep

It doesn't mean that I don't want to talk with you

I knew that you are really fed up and angry

I knew that I'm not a perfect girlfriend for you

And every one not gonna to be perfect

But I will improve myself and prove to you

I will change myself for you

I will try my best to be your ideal girl

Babe, I really love you, please trust me.

Friday night I missed babe's call ._.

Cuz I'm really really tired and I accidentally fall asleep

Feel so uncomfortable without his voice for only one day 

That's why I swear that I won't fall asleep on Saturday again

Mum and dad went to Penang, brother dating with his gf

And I stay alone at home : /

I've text him for a few times, but he didn't reply, maybe he was busy

Until midnight, finally can talk with him

We chit chat for about one hours

I could felt that babe was really in tired

But he still doesn't want to sleep :)

Really thanks for his accompany 

Hmm, actually gonna morning call babe the next day

Cuz he gonna have basketball competition

I've already tried my phone alarm for a few times

But it doesn't work the next day! Damn

Feel that I'm really failure being a girlfriend

Just a little bit thing but I can't do well

But really blessed that boy didn't blame me

But I still feel sorry about that : /

*EXAM FINISHED*

Almost every day of exam week I didn't sleep ;(

Pimples grow so fast, cuz too stress

Luckily babe accompany me during those nights

He has the power to motivate me to study :)

Babe really likes to joke with me

But sometimes the joke is seriously not a joke for me

A little joke is already enough for me to think a lot

Can't imagine the days without your voice :D

Soon , I'm gonna face my result, sigh : /

Sore throat caused by sing k with the crazy ones today, but its really fun ;)

Boy, you are really my inspiration

Without you, I really don't know what to post for my blog :D

Dear, do you know that I really care about your feeling?

If you feel sad I will feel the same too

So please be happy everyday :)

Don't care about other people's criticize

Don't give too much stress to yourself

You put efforts, you did well and its enough

You're always the champion in my heart that's all ;)

This morning, received voicemail from dear

This is the first time he making romantic like this ;)

Make me so touchyyy and sweettyy ;p

Hmm, today we didn't talk a lot

Actually I find out that he don't really like to be initiatived

So, now I should be the initiative one? ._.

Well, I know he needs some space.

Feel like wanna cuddle with you right now

I miss you so much ♥

Time past so fast, we had faced sweets and bitters

Hmm, we still haven't celebrate any monthsary yet

Seen you're not really care about monthsary 

But I always use to remember it

Cuz can make a little bit romance and warm in our relationship

You gave me a lot of joy and also sorrow

But these will be my part of memorable memory in my life

You are the one who isn't afraid to admit that you miss me 

You're the one who know that I'm not perfect

But you still treat me as who am I

Boy, I'll never give up on something that I really want

So, I'm not going to let you go, never

I don't need someone to complete me

I only need someone to accept me completely ;)

Your happiness is what truly matters most

Tonight had a little argue with him

He hang up my call ._.

Maybe my temper was really bad

But every time when we had an argue

I will be sleepless like tonight

But no matter what I'll not leave him

No matter what we arguing

I'll try to be patient with you

Cuz I really don't want to be apart with you

Babe, remember, no any girl will endure your weird temper like me 

So, I think I'm really a mighty partner ;)

Really hope you'll treasure me

Babe , no matter what , I'll be there for you

I'll always love you ♥

                                                                                          

Hehe , today will be a short short post ;)

Actually I thought today not gonna chat with dear

And decided not to update my blog

But at the end he find me lol :)

Gonna off for line call :D

Just finished video call with my babe

I guess we had talked for 2 hours more maybe :p

  Babe keep act cute in front of me, but I like it :p

Babe sang song for me and really funny :DD

He is really a frank person or maybe we can say it honest

Almost every girl doesn't like their boyfie talk about their ex , right?

But mine really different from others

He likes to tell me all about his thing

And even his ex

 I confess that I have a little bit sensitive with this topic 

But he told me , I'm not purposely make you jealous or what

I just want to be honest to you

I don't want to keep any secret from you

I just want to tell you all about my feeling

This few sentences made my night seriously

We don't know our relationship will stand for how long 

The only thing that I know is , I love you right now

We can't estimate our future 

But now you're the one that I really want to treasure 

Dear , you always made my day♥

Today really shock me

Heard that Taiwan having big earthquake

The first I think about you and your family

You really made me worried a lot

I really scare that you will leave me

I'm not kidding babe

Maybe you will thought that I'm really stupid 

But I'll so emotional just because I love you

I can't without you dear

God bless you and your family are alright there

You really made my day dear :) ._.

I'm so bless and pleasure that I'm still talking with you

After today , I realized that you're really very important for me

Dear, you're just a part of me and I can't let go♥

Uhh , really can't stand , kill me please 

Staying at home , boring like hell

Missing someone for no reason everyday

Almost Everyday i do the same thing

Hate holidays , no pocket money 

Still need to study for exam 

Better don't holiday 

Seriously i haven't start any study and revise yet

This is what I worried about

Not even one homework has done

Dont't have any motivation to do my homework

What's wrong to myself?

Babe , you make me crazy over you

Keep looking at my tablet just because of waiting your wechat

5 more days , just 3 days past

I'm waiting and count down-ing

June maybe not a good month for me

Exam already killing me : /

Babe, have fun and treasure the another 5 days

I love you my boy♥

Today I'm just freaking boring staying at home

Not planning to go anywhere 

Cuz my leg hurt badly

This morning , my leg was totally diabled 

SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH

The first thing that I do today

Miss my babe boy :)

Just finished line call with him

Although our distance are really far

But our heart are always together

I don't know whether he is missing me or not

But I'm missing him in every moment

You know why??

Cuz I'm too boring :p

Just the second day

How can i stand for another 6 days? ._.

Babe, when i count my blessings , I think of you ;)

I love you♡

Today boyfie fly to Taiwan

For 8 days , seriously its a long duration

Video chat with him but just a little minutes

Cuz its really really really lag

Knew that he was safely reach Taiwan

No more worries now :D

Babe please take care yourself 

Don't makes me worry please

Have fun but remember to drink water

I'll always miss you here

And I'm count down-ing 

7 more days you are back :p

I love you babe♥

Finished a 42 minutes 36 seconds call with my babe boy

He gonna goes to Taiwan tomorrow

Not gonna hear his voice for 8 days

Hope i can stand it : D

Babe said 8 times i love you to me 

Cuz he said he gonna goes to Taiwan for 8 Days

What a cute boy :D

Babe i will wait you 

And I'll miss you 
Safe trip♥

baby, I like you so much that you’re driving me crazy
Just thinking about you makes me feel good
This feeling, only you can make me have this feeling
Stay next to me, I can take care of you

I like you, I like everything about you
From your head to your toes
Even each of your small actions
I like it all, I like everything about you
If I’m with you, I’m happy
The more time passes, the more I like you

I pray that I can be with you every day
I can live happily with only you
I don’t ever want to be apart

Even when I’m looking at you

I miss you♥

My love is like a red rose
It may be beautiful now
But my sharp thorns will hurt you

Don’t look at me with that light glance

Don’t speak of love easily
If you want my heart, you need to take my pain too
Because you will be pricked by my thorns someday

Every rose has its thorn♥ 
Cy ♥

Today should be our date , babe

I'll be patient, boy 

I won't leave you , unless you don't love me 

Song of the day ~  If I let you go♥

Cy ♥

When I hug you, you can listen to my heart which beats only for you.
Cy♥

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
That we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
♥Hope we can have our date soon ;)