Last 3 days, I saw something that made my day

13th December, today i'm very happy coz I'm gonna meet my boy

Since we have been long time never have a date :D

But seriously, I don't think this is our dating.

We planned to watch movie but there's less choice for us to choose so we skipped

After that, he brought me to his working place to have some meal :D

But on the way, we didn't hold hand, sometimes he even walk faster than me

He ordered banana fritters with ice cream

We talk a lot in the restaurant, I felt very happy on that moment :D

Seem he had another appointment with his another friend on the day we date

And he asked me to go back home early, coz he wanted to find his friend

He told me not to think so much and emphasize that he's not going to forsake me

I asked him who is it, he said just a friend,
Seem he doesn't want to let me know about this friend

I used to believe him, I told myself don't be too over control a man

After our meal, seem he's very rushed and wanted to send me back home as fast as possible

Before he send me back, he went to meet some friends that also walking around at midvalley

I initiatively holded his hand but he refused 

He told me that he felt shy to hold my hand in front of his friend. :'D

On the way he accompanied me to the bus stop, he walked so fast

I need to walk faster to catch up with him

Until I walked faster and I could catch up with him, then he only slowly hold my hand.

But just awhile, he put off my hand and I walked to the bus stop alone.

Last 2 days, I want him to send me the picture that we took together
He refused and find many excuses to reject to send the picture to me, I don't know why.
Yesterday, I accidentally saw a picture of him and a girl in instagram
They looked so close in the photo,
Since the description of the photo told me that their relationship is just brother sister
I stunned at this photo for a few minutes
 I told him that i'm not feeling well and I want to sleep early
We didn't have phone call that night.
I think a lot at the night, I'm asking myself, why she will be so close with him
I felt so funny that we don't even have a so close photo before even we are couple :'D
I felt so failure to be your girlfriend :')
I still can act like nothing when having phone call with you :'D
I always text you and you just give me a seen and never reply, I accepted.
You take picture with other girl, I accepted.
But I couldn't accept that you outing with a girl and take close picture without telling me
You didn't tell me that the friend you going to meet is a girl!
If you tell me earlier that you going to meet a girl, I won't be so unhappy right now
Why you want me to discovery it by myself? why??? :'(
I told myself, if I want a unbreakable relationship with you
I should trust you, I should be loyalty and I did.
But I get nothing, nothing else :')
I knew sometimes I'm overthinking
But all I need is just a little bit care and attention from you my dear! :')
I just want to feel that I'm important for you
I just want to have a date with you, only you
I just want you to hold my hand no matter what
I just want you to take out some time to spent with me, just only me
We don't have much time to meet each other so I really appreciate the time we together
And this is just my little request from you
You have a very important status in my life
I really care about your feeling
I always feel worry and do a lot of things to make you cool off when we fight
Just because I don't want you to leave me
I love you my dear
But my every single action didn't get your attention
I wonder how important I'm for you :')